Townsend’s Solitaire
“If Only We Knew”

I never said I didn’t know just that I didn’t know what to do

Even though I knew I loved you from my first look at you

I see your daddy in your loving eyes and my momma in your brain

But somehow I can’t quite find myself in any of those ways

So I packed my bags

And I went west

Somewhere far from where this family is

And I’m gonna find what I am missing

I got your pictures on my desk

In my mail and in my head

Your baby teeth are fallin out at last

My little girl’s growin up too fast

If only we knew

If only we knew

I never said I didn’t know just that I didn’t know what to do

Even though I knew I loved you from my first look at you

I see your daddy in your loving eyes and my momma in your brain

But somehow I can’t quite find myself in any of those ways

I got your daddy on the phone

He says he loves me

I say I know

There’s a desperate silence and I don’t know

If I really was right to go

But I’m findin new loving hands

Beautiful but made of sand

Today she found the lies packed in my suitcase

Shes sayin God what are you doin babe?

If only she knew

If only she knew

I never said I didn’t know just that I didn’t know what to do

Even though I knew I loved you from my first look at you

I see your daddy in your loving eyes and my momma in your brain

But somehow I can’t quite find myself in any of those ways

But the world has a way of throwing back in your face

She gives and by God she takes

I think she’s saying “girl you should’ve stayed”

But now it’s just me and you

The tides have turned everything else blue

You’ve grown into someone new

But I’m finally seeing me in you

Oh God this empty house

I swear I hear em laughing down the hall

But I know its just their ghosts after all

Guiding us under the floorboards now

If only we knew

If only we knew

If only we knew

If only we knew

My dearest daughter I am sorry I hope you know I was just a child

I was grid locked and awestruck and I couldn’t find my smile

So I ran away like I always do, I didn’t know what I had for you

I wish your daddy was still so I could tell sorry too

If only I knew

If only I knew